I almost had a breakdown today. At work we got these silly mugs which were filled with milk chocolate/peanut butter lindt chocolates. I know I can't have chocolate or else a miggy comes out, but it was right after lunch and the thought of a creamy chocolatey, peanut buttery morsel sounded so perfect. I told my life coach what I planned to do, that maybe if I just had one or if I ate them really fast and no one knew, it would be okay...in the end he had to talk me off the ledge. I gave the chocolate to a coworker and all was well. Plus I had chinese food for lunch and for all I know there was MSG in there, are they still allowed to have that? I don't know but I know it's on the list of what not to eat. Therefore eating the chocolate would have thrown off my food tests.
Tomorrow I will give away some of my delectable dark chocolate chews to someone at work. I also have a stash of chocolate protein drinks in my fridge that I used to chug after each workout or just as a snack between meals. I would love it if there is such a small amount of cocoa powder in there that it wouldn't trigger a miggy. I will try that possibly this weekend to see. I miss that. It's so hard to snack whilst being able to eat almost nothing! Arrrgh! But, I am enjoying not having a miggy everyday, it's amazing. I actually had one this week. I can't remember what the circumstance was...darn it, I need to keep a food diary.